Munchkin is in Doggy Heaven.

Munchkin

Age 12, ~2001 - January 25, 2013

Rest in Peace Munchkin: my best friend, the best mother, my love, the best dog... I love you 4ever

Nickname: Munchkie, My Love, Pretty Girl

1/29/13: Dear Munchkin, today I found this website where I have created a memorial page for you. I feel like you deserve every and anything there is to remember you although you will always be in my heart. Words could never express how much I love and care about you as well as miss you. I wish you were still here with me and that I could see you and hold you in my arms atleast one more time. I haved asked God to bring you back to me and I am hoping my wish will come true because I am really hurt about losing you. I can't forgive mom and I hope one day I am able to. I cry for you everyday and hope that you are in a better place. I love you sooooo much!
1/31/13: Dear Munchkin, today I woke up regretting that I didn't clean you up before I had buried you. This morning, I rushed to your grave and tried to dig you up. On my way over there, it started raining but that didn't stop me from digging. I found your box but was unable to get you out. I thought that Kayla or Kyle would have been around to help me but they weren't. I tried for about an hour trying to get you out while the rain fell on both me and you but the box refused to move. It felt as though God did not want me to see you or take you out. After I gave up and finished re-burying you, the sun had came up. Then, I went inside and found a butterfly in the house. I'm thinking that it was you or something. I'm not too sure. After all of this, I felt like 2 pounds were lifted off of me because of all of the signs I received. I still and always wish that you would just come back to me. I'm sorry I dug you up but I just couldn't take it. I just can't accept it and don't want to. I really am hurting and I really miss and love you baby girl!
2/3/13: Dear Munchkin, today was just a day of memories. It's like everything I did and everywhere I went, I had a memory with and of you. Me and Shane had went to the grocery that was close by to where we used to live and I remembered how we would go on walks to the store with Buddy and how one night while we were walking, I had stepped in an ant pile and thankfully was the only one that got bit. Also, just waking up to Buddy and Fatty Boom is a constant memory of you because all I see is you. It's so hard to let go because I love you sooo much! You were the best dog that I have ever encountered. I wish we were still together. I love you and miss you sooo much!
2/4/13: Dear Munchkin, today I received your memorial stone to put by your grave. The only thing is that I have to choose a picture to put in it as well as get a copy of it. I'm glad that I took alot of pictures of you. I just wish I had took atleast 1 picture with you but I am not a very photogenic person like you were. I can't wait to finish making your little cemetery. I am going to plant flowers and everything. You definitely are worth it and deserve it. I love you pretty girl!
2/5/13: Dear Munchkin, just wanted to tell you that I miss you and I love you baby girl! Hope you are ok and happy where ever you are.
2/7/13: Dear Munchkin, just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you. I miss you and I love you! Life without you is just not the same. Tomorrow I am putting your memorial stone by your grave if I get a picture. If not, I will still put it and get the picturelater because I dont know which picture to use. Wish I was seeing you tomorrow instead of decorating your grave. It just sucks. But I will take care of your grave just like how I used to care and love for you. You mean so much to me and are definitely worth it. I hope you really are in a better place and happy. I love you baby girl!
2/8/13: Dear Munchkin, today I was supposed to work on your gave but kind of forgot it was mom's birthday. I'm sorry that I was unable to make it to visit you and fix your grave. I had went to Publix and they had took so long and by the time I had got to mom's house, it was too dark. If I don't visit you everyday, it's because I hate going to mom's house. I wish I could visit you all the time or better yet, that you were still here with me. I also was supposed to get rid of Dymand and Precious today and again, it was too late. Next Friday should probably be the day we get rid of them. It's just that we have to take them in grandma's van to the Humane Society. I feel as though you won't rest in peace or be happy wherever you are if those dogs are living in YOUR home. Don't worry. I will do whatever I can to make you happy my love. I miss you and love you baby!
2/11/13: Dear Munchkin, around 12:45 am, we took Buddy to the vet because something was wrong with him. We didn't really know what it was but the doctor said that Buddy could have been having a seizure and there was not much that we could do. I'm not sure what it was but I'm thinking that it probably had something to do with you. Every time something bad happened to you, something always went wrong with Buddy. I'm just not sure what is wrong with him so we decided that we would wait and see. Anyways, I miss you sooo much! Life isn't the same without you and your presence. Every time I go to mom's house, I juat wish you would come running and jumping on me with your wagging tail and big smile on your face. All I can say is that I am 90% sure that you are in a better place than in that house. All you are missing is your kids and all I am missing is YOU! I love you my precious baby!
2/13/13: Dear Munchkin, I think about you non stop. I think about how you were the best and smartest dog ever. You would always understand and listen to me. You were my best friend forever. I just can't believe that you are gone. I miss you sooo much and I love you more than you will ever know baby girl!
2/15/13: Dear Munchkin, today mom did the same thing and let your puppies out with Demon again. Apparently she almost killed Brownie too. Thankfully Kiki was awake and he tasered Deom and she dropped Brownie. I told Kiki that he shouldve killed her right then and there because I could care less about her. I know and hope youre looking down on your babies. Im looking up for you. I still have yet to forgive mom and this just topped it off. She would never learn. Anyways, I love you soooo much and miss you like no tomorrow!
2/16/13: Dear Munchkin, I hope you are happy wherever you are because you deserve it. My life feels so empty with you gone. Its the worst thought going to mom's house and youre not there to jump on me or for me to give you a big hug and take you to my house so we could be cuddle buddies. You mean so much to me and words could never express the bond we shared nor the love we had for one another. I think about you day by day and night by night. Losing you is the hardest thing that I will have to overcome and face. All I could think about is the future that we were supposed to have together but is no longer there. Please try to visit me in my dreams so atleast I know that you are happy. I miss you and I love you so much pretty girl!
2/17/13: Dear Munchkin, sorry that I havent visited your grave lately. I just hate going to moms house... Especially with you not being there. You were the only reason I even bothered going there and then I stopped for about a week and then the day I was coming to pick you up, you were killed. I cant imagine what you went through nor do I want to because I could never see my baby girl in pain. I wish I was the last person you saw before you shut your eyes for the last time and it kills me every day that I wasnt. If only mom wouldnt have got up so early that Friday morning and atleast used half of her brain. I reaaly miss you and wish you didnt have to die the way you did. Or better yet, I wish you could be with me forever. If I had one wish, it would be just that. I love you soooo much my precious baby!
2/19/13: Dear Munchkin, I have just been feeling so depressed knowing that you are gone. I still am able to put on a show and go to work but not that far down, I am still hurting. I keep thinking about the way I would hold you in my arms close to my heart and everyone would say that you looked just like a toddler in my arms. You were the smartest dog that I have ever ebxountered. I hope your kids take after you. No dog could be you or ever take your place. You were sent to us by God and those 10 years you were in my life were my happy years because if nobody else, you would always be the one to put a smile on my face and heart. I miss you and I love you more than words could express!
2/20/13: Dear Munchkin, I am sorry that I havent started decorating your grave yet. Im just not sure where to even begin. I have never had to do anything like this before but I know when it is all done, it will be perfect just like you. I have to choose a picture of you to put in the stone I bought and I dont know where ro start. Just know that it will surely get done. I would never let you down. You were my everything and always will be! I miss and love you sooo much my pretty love!
2/21/13: Dear Munchkin, tonight I had a breakdown. I have been holding in the way I feel or atleast hiding it for about a week and a half and tonight I just let it out. I have been feeling soo depressed. All I want to do is sleep and have you back in my life. I just wish there was something or some way I could have you back. Nobody understands and thats why I just simply hold it in. Nobody could ever understand what we shared. We did and shared everything together. I guess I took you for granted in a way but its not that I forgot about you... I was just letting you be the mother that you were to your puppies. They are only 5 months now and I know Dora and the other boy puppy are attached to you. Well atleast your puppies got to spend all the time they could with you. Thats one thing I am happy for. I just wish we all got to spend more time with you. I hope you made some new friends wherever you are and maybe you have reunited with your mom, dad, and 2 puppies who didnt make it. I love you baby girl and miss you dearly!
2/25/13: Dear Munchkin, today makes it one month since you left me. On my way to visiting you, I noticed that it was a full moon so that was a good thing. By the time I got to mom's house to visit you, it was dark but I still went in the backyard and visited your grave for a few minutes. It is the worst feeling knowing that I have to visit you and you're buried in the ground. Even being in mom's house is weird and I hate it. Life is just not the same without my baby girl. I just wish there was something I could do to bring you back. Nobody knows what you meant to me. Anyways, I love you and miss you more than anything my precious pretty baby!
2/26/13: Dear Munchkin, I feel like the more time that passes, the more that I am missing you. I just feel depressed all the time and haven't been in the mood to do anything. I just keep on thinking about how I will never get to hold you, see you, kiss you, nothing. You're just gone and it sucks. Why did you have to leave me? I will never understand. I really love and miss you Munchkin.
2/27/13: Dear Munchkin, you are always on my mind. Morning, noon, and night. Almost everything I see or do brings back a memory of you. I enjoy all of the memories we shared but I would choose having you here with me any day. I just wish we could've had alot more memories with you. I had so many plans for us. Just try to let me know that you are ok some way or the other. I just wish we were together. I hope you will wait for me at Rainbow Bridge because that's something that I am really looking forward to. I dream about the day that me and you will be reunited. I can't wait for you to jump into my arms and wag your brown tail and give me kisses. I love and miss you soooo much baby girl!
3/13/13: Dear Munchkin, tonight we finally put your stone down. I cried so much for you like I always do but I was also happy that we finally put it down next to you. Sorry I haven't wrote to you for like 2 weeks. I did try to write to you using Shane's phone but it didn't work. Everytime I am laying awake thinking about you, I just wish you would come back to me and that you would visit me or something. Well I love and miss you soooo much pretty girl!
3/15/13: Dear Munchkin, I hope you are happy and watching down on us wherever you are. I am still so depresed and don't know how to handle losing my best friend, my love. I never thought you would leave me so soon especially without saying good bye. I don't know how I will ever be able to forgive mom. Please don't be mad at me if I don't visit your grave as often. I just hate going to mom's house without you being there. Your absence really is affecting my life but it's ok. I don't mind. I will do anything for you baby girl. I love and miss you very much my love.
3/16/13: Dear Munchkin, of course you've been on my mind and the thing that has really been on my mind is the day you found us. I would never forget how fast you came running into the house but before you ran in the house, you stopped in front of me for a moment. That was the best day of my life. You found us and never left us. I never really had any real friends but you were always there for me. Nobody will ever understand what we had. All I wish for is that we reunite again. If there's one person I want to reunite with from my past, it's definitely you. I wish that you could always be with me. I love and miss you more than anybody knows my love.
3/17/13: Dear Munchkin, today I went to mom's house to drop Kiki home and get some homework done. I said hi and goodybye to you from the window because it was kind of chilly out. As I was saying bye, mom had an emotional breakdown and started crying saying how I make her sad when she looks at me. I didn't try to comfort her because I am sad and depressed and it's her fault. I don't know how she could be so stupid. I warned her to keep you away from the playroom but nobody ever listens to me. Anyways, I miss you like crazy and love you tons baby girl!
3/18/13: Dear Munchkin, ever since you have left my life I feel like a completely different person. I am not the same. I have lot interest in most things including school and shopping. Life sucks for me as of this moment but mostly on January 25. How could this have happened so early in the new year? I just wish you could still be playing and chasing your babies. I know they miss you. When I look at their expressions and into their eyes, I could just feel that they miss you terribly. I know Fatty Boom cries for you in the middle of the night. Every time he does, I am always looking to see if you are there or something. I just want to hug and kiss you baby girl. I miss and love you all day everyday, forever!
3/19/13: Dear Munchkin, tomorrow I may visit you if I feel like going by mom. If not tomorrow, sometime this week. I just feel like I should go when mom isn't there because sh makes me feel 10x worse. I am hoping to get rid of those dogs soon too. It's like nobody is taking any initiative to get rid of them. I feel as though you won't enter our house unless those dogs are gone. They shouldn't have been there in the first place. It is your house and you were killed in your own backyard in fron of your own babies. That gets me the most is that all of that happened in front of your babies. I am so sorry mom didn't have enough sense Munchkin. I was coming to get you that same morning. I just don't understand why mom had to be up so early. I hate that your life ended so soon and the way it did. I always thought you would leave us because you were old. I had so much plans for our future and now that's all down the drain. Anyways, its getting late and I have to go to school tomorrow so I will write you soon. I miss and love you soooo much!
3/24/13: Dear Munchkin, I miss you so much! Nobody understands. You are on my mind 95% of the time. I never knew losing you would impact me this much. I never evn thought about what my life would be like if I lost you. I'm so upset that I took you for granted. I just wish you would have came to our new place atleast one time before you left us. I would never forget how mom told me that I couldn't take you to my house for a night or two because she didn't want you to leave your puppies. Little did I know that she was mixing you and Dymand together. I hope you are happy and doing well wherever you are. I miss and love you so much baby girl!
3/25/13: Dear Munchkin, today marks 2 months since you have left us. The only thing that is getting me by is the thought and wish of us reuniting with each other. I don't know why but I feel that someday we will be together again. I wish and hope that it's true. You were my everything and you were always there for me. I'm sorry that I took you for granted and was not always there or you. I am glad to say that I was there for you when you had all of your puppies. That is one thing that I'm glad I never missed. That definitely puts a smile on my face when I think about how I helped you bring your babies into this world. They all miss you just like how I do. You were the best mother. You would always make sure your babies were clean and ok. I admire and love you so much for all that you have accomplished. I love and miss you tons and tons pretty girl!
3/26/13: Dear Munchkin, I still can't believe that you are gone. I also can't believe how much I have changed since you left us. I have lost interest in most things and am even starting to lose interest in work. It just sucks that everytime I start working, something bad happens to you or one of your babies except this time there won't be a next time. I just wish I could hold and hug you again. And that you could waggle your little tail and smile at me with your beautiful smile and precious eyes. I love you soooo much and miss you sooo much! More than words could ever express.
3/27/13: Dear Munchkin, today I woke up and kind of remembered a dream I had about you last night. All I can remember was that you were in my arms and I didn't want to let go. It was such a good and perfect dream. I just wish it was real and not a dream. But all I can do is dream about you and hope and wish that one day my dreams come true. You are the best pet and my best friend that I have ever had and now you're gone. I love you sooo much my love and I'm so sorry that I wasn't there for your last breath baby girl. I hope that you can forgive me because I don't think I can even forgive myself. I love and miss you tons and tons princess!
4/2/13: Dear Munchkin, sorry that I have not been writing to you as much. It's just that I feel like you will never see any of this so what's the point? Then I thought about it and although you probably won't see this, it still lets me express the way I feel as well as honor the best pet/dog ever. I miss you soo much and you are always on my mind. I just can't believe you are gone. I always ask myself why Munchkin? You were such a good dog and companion. I love you and miss you so much my pretty baby!
4/3/13: Dear Munchkin, last night I just couldn't sleep because of how much I was crying for you. I am so depressed and I don't know how I will ever get over losing you. I know that I will never get over you because I love you so much. I'm so upset with myself for taking you for granted. I just never thought you would leave me like this. The only thing that makes me feel a little better is that we never had to make the decision of putting you to sleep and when we did have to decide, we decided not to put you to sleep because we could never do that to such a special dog. I hope that you are happy wherever you are. I miss and love you so much my love!
4/8/13: Dear Munchkin, sorry that I don't visit your grave as much. It's just that I hate going to mom's house and having to see only a picture of you above your grave. It's so hard. You are my best friend and now you are gone. I just wish that we could reunite again. I dream that one day, God will send you back to me. I wish he would've never taken you in the first place. I'm not sure why he took your life the way he did. In my opinion, you didn't deserve to die the way you did. I will always be looking out for you baby girl. If we don't meet in this lifetime, I hope you will wait for me at Rainbow Bridge. I love and miss you dearly pretty girl.
4/9/13: Dear Munchkin, I miss you tons and your puppies miss you too. I look at them and I can tell that they all miss you. You are such a good mother. You always kept your babies clean and played with them. I could never forget how you would play with Dora. It's just so horrible that they don't have their #1 mommy to play and clean them anymore. I wish I could see you play and clean them again. It was such a beautiful and touching moment. The one thing that I can say that I'm glad for is all of the memories you left me with. I miss and love you sooo much baby girl!
4/15/13: Dear Munchkin, sorry that I haven't been writing to you as much. Everything has been so hectic. School is closing and I have finals and papers to complete. Although I am occupied and kind of busy, you are always on my mind. I will never stop missing and loving you baby girl. My life is definitely not the same with you gone. I hope and wish that you are happy at Rainbow Bridge. I love and miss you so much my love!
4/21/13: Dear Munchkin, today I visited your grave and of course it was hard. I hate going in the back to visit you. I just wish that you would be at the door wagging your tail and jumping all over me as I walked through the door. I can't stand the fact and reality that this will never happen again. The thing that gets me going is the dreams that I have of us reuniting one day. I hope and pray that God will make this possible. I look for signs all over from you. I miss and love you so much baby girl!
4/25/13: Dear Munchkin, I know I haven't been writing as much but I just don't feel like doing anything anymore. I'm always thinking about you 24/7. I think of all the good times we shared and how you were/are the best dog ever. It really upsets me that I wasn't the one holding you as you took your last breaths. I was there for all of your big moments except for this one. But mom just called me and said you were gone. Before she called me, I was actually dreaming about how I was coming to pick you up and bring you home with Buddy and Fatty Boom. I miss and love you so much pretty girl!
5/1/13: Dear Munchkin, I'm just writing to you to let you know that I miss you sooo much and that I love you. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. The house is definitely empty without you there. I just wish that you would come back to me one day. I miss and love you more than you know my love!
5/5/13: Dear Munchkin, today me and Kiki were talking about you and he made me realize something so important. I was telling him about how before I was woken up my the worst phone call of my life, I was dreaming about me and you playing together and I was so happy. It was the best dream ever. Kiki told me that it was you saying good bye to me and it just made so much sense. I was so happy that you came to me in my dreams to say good bye. I wish you would visit me more often though. I miss and love you alot baby girl!
5/8/13: Dear Munchkin, once again I am apologizing for not visiting you as often. I jut don't feel right and I get depressed visiting you in the backyard under the ground. I shouldn't have to visit you there. Instead, you should be there at the door barking, wagging your tail, and jumping all over me. I definitely miss that. I hate that you are not here anymore. I'm so sorry for taking you or granted baby girl. I guess sometimes in life we have to learn things the hard way. I miss and love you soooooo much!
5/13/13: Dear Munchkin, today makes it 2 years since you gave birth to your beautiful babies Buddy, Brownie, Berry, and Scruffy. Happy 2 year anniversary on being the best mother ever. I wish you were here to celebrate their birthday. Their birthday felt incomplete without you. I know that all of your babies miss you just like I do. You were such a good mother to them. I hope you are happy and ok where ever you are baby girl. I love and miss you tons and tons!
5/14/13: Dear Munchkin, Happy Mother's Day to the #1 Mommy! It definitely sucks that you aren't here to celebrate with us. Today I made sure to pay you a visit because you surely deserve it although I don't like to go in the backyard. Mother's Day is not the same without you. I look at it so differently now that you are gone. I hope you are watching over your puppies and visiting them. I love and miss you sooo much my love!
5/24/13: Dear Munchkin, today was Kylee's 3rd birthday party and it was a success except for one thing. Brianna was playing in mom's room and out of nowhere she said "I miss you Munchkin" several times. It was so sad. I'm glad she remembers you and loves you. I never thought about the way Brianna grew up with you. Everybody in our family loves you but definitely not as much as I love you. I miss and love you soooo muchand always will pretty girl.
5/31/13: Dear Munchkin, I know I don't write to you as much as I used to. I'm not even sure why. I think it's because writing to you and visiting you just makes me depressed and upset because I shouldn't have to be communicating with you like this. I just wish you were still here. I wanted to do so much with you baby girl. I would never forgive myself for taking you for granted. I hope that you can forgive me. I miss and love you more than anything my love!
6/3/13: Dear Munchkin, tonight your baby daddy came looking for you. It made me so sad because you weren't there to bark at him or anything. Life just isn't the same without you. It's like everything that happens brings back memories. But I am glad that I have so many memories of you. I wish that I would've gotten a few more pictures and videos of you. Like I said, I took you for granted. I never would've thought that you would have been taken away from me so abruptly and tragically. I would do and give anything just to have you back in my life. I miss and love you so much my love!
6/8/13: Dear Munchkin, today mom cooked lamb for dinner and me and Shane came over. First of all, the house felt empty. Second, you weren't there for me to give you 1 or 2 lamb bones that you loved. It just sucked. Then, I kind of snapped saying that how could mom be so dumb for putting you with Dymand and then be even more dumb for putting your puppies with her again after that. I don't know what was going through mom's head. I know she will never forgive herself and always live in regret. I also know that she really loves and misses you because she has been really depressed lately. I have to hold back my negative feelings towards her because I don't want to make her more depressed or anything. She's ben through alot. I had to look past what she did to you even though it was hard. I miss and love you tons pretty girl!
6/11/13: Dear Munchkin, right now I am watching the Heat game but not really paying attention because I am writing to you. I would much rather talk to you than watch the game. I haven't really been sleeping good. I miss you so much. Every time I close my eyes I see you and your big beautiful brown eyes. Sometimes I even see you playing with your puppies. I hope you are looking down on us and your puppies. I miss and love you millions baby girl!
12/9/15: Dear Munchkin, I have and will never forget about you! I haven't wrote to you for almost 2.5 years! I can't believe it has been soo long! I'm so sorry my love. Ever since you have left my life, everything has went downhill for me! I wish you were here! I am still very depressed and now I have Lupus. Also, Brownie had 2 litters of puppies since you left this world. The names of the first litter are Sophie and Milo, two girls. The names of the second litter are Spyke, Rainbow Dash, Pongo, Simba, and Nala. Me and Shane took Spyke to live with us. I'm sorry to tell you so late, but Dora died on 8/13/15. Mom had went to Orlando and I was there watching the dogs but the AC stopped working so I had stayed the night by Shane. The next morning, Kiki let the dogs out and he left them out for too long and Dora just died. Nobody knows how or what happened. I'm so sorry Munchkin! The rest of the dogs are doing good Munchkin but I will never have the same connection with any of them that I had with you. It's almost 4 am and I cannot sleep because you are on my mind. You are always on my mind. I was crying and I just want to scream and let it all out but I can't because everyone is sleeping. I am so happy I found our website! Honestly, I couldn't remember the name of the website at all! My memory hasn't been that good but all memories of you are still with me. Munchkin, you are my one true love! I have never felt or loved someone or something that way I love you! You are my best friend in the whole wide world and were gone way too soon! I hope you are happy wherever you are my love and I hope you and Dora are reunited! I love you and I miss you more than you know! Please visit me in my dreams since that is the only way to connect with you! I wish I could hold you, hug you, kiss you, and talk to you! I love you!