Sadie is in Doggy Heaven.

Sadie

Age 14, ~2002 - May 19, 2016

Sadie was a loyal Best Friend. I couldn't be selfish any longer, your eyes showed your pain.

Mommy
May 21, 2016 Mommy
May 21, 2016 Beth
May 21, 2016 Beth
May 21, 2016 Beth
May 21, 2016 Beth
May 21, 2016 Beth
May 21, 2016 Beth
May 21, 2016

Nickname: Sadie Girl, Baby Girl and Best Friend

I began as Aunt Beth I always said she called me Aunt Bef because she has an under bite but when her Mommy (my sister) was moving out of my house as my roommate I said "uh Sadie is staying with me". A small nice discussion and I said we have grown too close and I want her. I'm the older sister so I won or Sadie and I both won. So many memories but we have been inseparable ever since January 2005, even when she wasn't feeling well she would do the loyal following me all over the house, I would say honey just lay there and rest, as time went on the past several months and especially past 2-3 weeks 1 out of 5 times she would stay laid down and rest, that's how I knew she wasn't her healthy self. I always told her "you know it's you and Mom growing old together and I wouldn't anyone else to be my Best Friend and grow old with than my Sadie Girl".

Lots of great memories- too painful to write now, this past week is all I can think of right now and just missing her. We shared food, I eat then she loved licking the plate and yes she would have her own dog food or chicken breast etc.. We slept together although I slept on the couch this past 3 months because it was easier for her to get up and down on with her steps at the couch than rather her fall off the bed from "fluffing the blanket" and backing up and possibly fall off (she never did I was terrified she would), I even put a bed rail on one side so she wouldn't fall out of bed but she fluffed and backed up towards to where there was no rail, too dangerous, the couch it is.

Lots of signs - the strangest thing RIGHT NOW today is it's been 2 days and the feeling is love , miss and in pain from her loss but after work I ran errands and got home 2 hours after my normal time and worked today with a sense that was almost feeling guilt for the freedom in my mind. All I have done all these years was feel a huge amount of guilt when she was home so I rushed home, errands would be with Sadie. When I'm at work I always thought of how lonely she probably is without me there. When she starting getting ill with good and bad days I worried myself on "how is she doing". Today was weird my mind felt so much freer from the constant worry and guilt- I would rather have her here and worry about her FOR SURE but didn't realize how constant my mind went there. It's a mental freedom for me from worry and guilt replaced with guilt from making "the hard decision to free her from pain"

The best thing of all is to get past the first 1-2 hours after thoughts of I couldn't go on without her. With grandchildren, family and friends your thoughts quickly get back in line with reality. It helped to spend the evening with my daughter and 6 month old grandson Sammy.