pugsly denham is in Doggy Heaven.

pugsly denham

Age 12, May 08, 1999 - September 30, 2011

god sent me his love in the form of a pug.

Nickname: ugly pugly

he was a spirited dog. he came when he wanted yet he never ran away, left the yard or wandered more then a few yard from his family. all the toys were his and he would pout or whine if the other dogs played with them.his best friend was our staffordshire terrier.he slept on the terrier,s back till he was a yr. and a half. he was so full of life and happy and such a spoiled clown that no one could ever be really angry at him. the other dogs never growled or raised a lip to him. he always got his way,toy or treat.even if it wasn,t his. becaused he loved with every thing in him and we all knew it. you are with saint clarkie and roxy now and i know they are glad you are with them again. only sammy is left of the original brat pack. never was two dog owners so lucky as to have such well behaved, beautiful dogs as we had and have.none of you ever snapped , snarled much less bit another living thing. not a cat , a squirrel, or human. although you, pugsly,, loved to chase the cat if he ran, and would bark at the squirreles in the tree for hours, as they dropped apples on your head. but, clarkie taught you well and we knew it was all in play and never vicious. we see the difference because we have a new chiuahua that is vicious and he is still a puppy. we have no clarkie to teach him and it is hard but we won't give up . in memory of our brat pack we will make him a loving dog like all of you. hopefully in our lifetime. i still sleep with your ragged old bear but it 's not you. daddy wanted to get me another pug for my birthday but i said no i'de want it to be you and it wouldn't be because i know every dog is unique . there is only one you. every dog has a purpose and yours, my boy, was to to bring boundless joy and laughter to our family everyone who entered our house left feeling better than when they entered you had them laughing within minutes with your antics. 3-11-2012 missing you my boy. i love you ugly pugly.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- golly pugsly i still miss you so much. i can talk about you now without crying so hard i can't continue. but it is always bitter-sweet. the fun times , the oneryness, the love , and your tushy tuck boogie are things i still miss so much. unfold your wings baby because we are going on another road trip and you always loved your road trips. tell clarkie and roxy too. it'll be like old times. we just have to remember to spell the word cow because if we say it clarkie jumps to every window looking for them ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- mar. 22 2012 morning my love . miss your snoring. the first time i heard you snore i laughed . i thought it was the cutest thing i had ever heard in my life. some times you would snore so loud daddy would turn the volume up on the t.v, for the 12 yrs. i had you i never stopped thinking that it was the most beautiful sound in the world. i miss it more then i ever imagined. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------morning my pugs, going yo watch my granson play football they have a spring league now. you loved going to the fields with all the kids and people petting and playing with you. you were such a show off when you were younger it was hard to watch the game. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------3-24-12 another day is almost over my boy and again i go to bed without you and your snoring i still can't believe it's been almost 6 mo. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------hi my boy ilove you ugly pugly . we went to the mts. sun. and it brought back so many memories but one special one that made me smile. and i wasn't even there that time the only time you went without me. toni went with her two dogs and dad took you , sammy, and roxy (our other two dogs). i told them they would regret it. they didn't believe me . when they got home they looked like they were fit to be tied. daddy was saying he was never taking you again, toni said you were the worst dog ever. you wouldn't mind for nothing .none of you wore leashes but none of you ever ran off but you would not go back to the car, you would just wander around sniffing and they would have to go pick you up and carry you to the car.all the other dogs would be walking ahead of them a little ways and you would be lagging behind sniffing things and they have to go pick you up and carry you to where the other dogs were. they didn't have to chase you you never ran off but you never came when called until you were good and ready. they were so exasperated i laughed so hard and couldn't resist saying i told you so. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 6 months today my love. and i still can't get used to losing you. I held you while you went to sleep and said, " good-bye, dear friend" i did not want to say good-bye i wanted to go with you. your suffering was at an end but mine had just begun. love you my boy .will i ever stop missing you?. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ i love you pugsly -4-11-2012 ------------ hi my boy, when you started getting old i used to ask you how long can i live without a heart because you were my heart and if you left how long could i live without you. well my love it turns out longer then i thought. i am grateful for the dogs we have now but even though i love them , the bond i shared with you was so different . i can love other dogs but not the way i loved you. --still hard to be without you but the tears are much less. there is so much i miss..... the way you looked at me,always feeling you next to me never even an arms length away i could touch you any time i wanted but mostly your snoring. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------4-19-12 morning my boy woke up thinking of you again. still find it hard to believe that the sun comes up and life goes even with you gone. i guess i thought since my world (you) ended every thing should end. how silly huh? i miss you so much my boy, my heart. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------it was mario's pugsly birthday today so i left him a message. he stays on my mind more then the other pugs, not only because you have the same name, and spelled the same but his profile pic. reminds me so much of you. your expressions are so alike . there is this look that you both have that i don't see in the other pugs. is that strange? i don't have a pic of you with that look, that is probably why i am drawn to it. i never thought to capture it on film and i wished i had but i never knew how much i would miss it or even that i wouldn't see it again.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------4-28-12 oh pugsly i wrote more but for some reason it didn't post so i'm trying again . I LOVE YOU PUGS AND I WANT TO BE WITH YOU> 5-8-12 -i didn't exactly know your birthday since someone else found you and your sister on the side of a road but it was the day i got you . to me that was your birthday . the vet judged you to be between 6 and 9 mon. so we put today your birthday. the day that changed me and my life. at that time i really did not know how much you would affect my life and me .the people who had you for a few months of your little life crated you and your sis for hours as puppies because when i got you you refused to go in and sleep there even though they said you were used to it and liked it??? so i put you in my bed you actually wet the bed that first night. i was shocked.but knew you didn't know better. so i went and bought you a bed that we put on the floor. i awoke that 2nd night and was watching you snore and i saw you pee in your sleep. you had wet your bed. my heart broke thinking that you had been crated so long you had no choice but to pee where you slept. i went and bought a plastic sheet for my bed put you back on my bed. like a toddler being potty trained i took you out before bed, set the alarm for 3 hrs. and take you out again then back to bed. in a couple days i stopped . you never wet the bed again. ( but the sheet stayed on your whole life ) till the last night of your life when you wet the bed for the last time. the sheet is off now my love but i would put it back on in a min. if i could have you back. happy birthday my love--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --5-13-12 --- tomorrow is mother's day and this is the 1st one without you since i got you. my boy, my baby, my love. i know the kids will come for awhile and i,ll have a nice day. but that ache in my heart that nagging emptiness will be with me .my kids love me i know that but they could never love as you did. they wouldn't be normal if they did but for a dog it is normal that's what makes a dog so special.and that is where the empty feeling comes from . i miss you so much all of you roxy, clarkie, and you. and when i was young my tramp and my joe. but you were my special love if a dog can be a soul-mate you were it. my other soul-mate was a cat named tramp when i was a teen and to this day i have never bonded to another cat like i did him. always in my heart my boy. forever on my mind ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 5-28-12 my boy, daddy says i will keep grieving because i won't let you go but my sadness will always be till i see again. i will never let you go if it means forgetting you even if i still cry and i still cry. your memories are so bitter-sweet my boy they make me smile then cry because i miss you so. i love you pugsly....-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 6-6-12 the other day i left to the store with daddy and then the howling started with sammy, gitmo and reden. you always were the one to howl whenever i left you home and you would set the other dogs off, the neighbors would laugh and say they always know when we were leaving. there has been no howling since you left 8 months ago,-- till then. were you letting me know you are still with me? i may not be able to pat your head , or have you fetch a ball but you always with me in every memory i recall. i love you ugly pugly as much now as when you were alive and i miss touching you, playing with you, talking to you and everything we did together.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------6-26-12-----------------------my boy, i miss you still. ithink of you all the time there are always so many things that bring back memories of you. first i smile then that gnawing empiness comes knowing you're not here. i understand that there must be things i still have to do before i can join you and i will do my best to fulfill those tasks but it is so hard without you to help me. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------7-23-12 hi, my boy , my heart i think of you every day at least a 100 times it seems.. i just can't get used to you not being here. if i'm in the back yard and i see a squirrel i say "pugsly, look" and i see you running after them barking with that dumb smile on your face.. everything i do or see brings a memory of you because we did everything together. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------8-10-12 never a day without thoughts of you. draven still remembers you and made me give him a picture of you to put on his wall he was only 4and a half when you died. he and his brother fight over who gets to sleep with the stuffed pug i have. and many times out of the blue he'll say "i miss pugsly" i always say i do too. good-night my boy , my heart, my love. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------8-24-12 oh my pugs you were such a big part of my life you and clarkie and roxy but mostly YOU. i really do feel lost like my life is a dream that i'm floating through. it is almost a year and i still can not believe your gone . maybe it's cuz you're not you are always here in everything i do there is a memory. god i miss that tushy tuck boogie you did when you were happy.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------9-20-12 hi my boy, my love, my heart. i miss you so much still. life is so tough without you . i know no matter what you were always there making me laugh with your antics . a spoiled little brat but i loved everything about you.are you waiting for me my boy? i'm becoming afraid that you've forgotten me.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------9-29-12 this was my last nite with you ,my love, i knew it was. i carried you outside to lay on the grass we laid there for along time . you couldn't stand to pee so i let you pee laying down watching the sunset. then i carried you in the house and held you on my lap till bed.. every so often i would whisper in your ear (as i had done almost every day for 12 yrs.)," I LOVE YOU UGLY PUGLY" as weak as you were you would turn your head to look at me and lick my nose.. i put a doggy pad on the bed under you that night i didn't care if you peed or pooped i wanted you with me in bed as you had always been . the thought that you might die alone in a bed on the floor was something i couldn't have lived with. the next morning you were barely here i told dad to say good-bye because you wouldn't be here when he got home from work. the only thing you could move was your head and you would lift it and look to see where i was.. toni drove us to the vet at 8 a.m. as we drove you would lift your head to look at me and i would say "i'm here my love i'll always be here where you can see me." i will hold you always. you were so cold my boy. ieven wrapped in blankets i could feel how cold you were i couldn't believe you were still with me. oh god, pugs i still miss you so much . there is such an emptiness in me that nothing can seem to fill. be happy my boy and wait for me . remember what i used to say to you."bless you ,bless every breath that you take, bless every move that you make and BLESS YOUR LITTLE HEART FOR LOVING ME' !!!!!! -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------SEPT. 30, 2012 " i lost a treasured friend today. a little dog who used to lay his head upon my knee and share his silent thoughts with me. He'll come no longer to my call, retrieve no more his favorite ball. A voice far greater then my own has called him to his golden throne. Although my eyes are filled with tears, i thank god for all the happy years he let him spend with me, and all the love and loyalty. When it is time for me to go and join him there this much i know... i shall not fear the transient dark for my friend will greet me with his bark." unknown ....... run free my spirited one , forever in my heart and memories, till we meet again, my love. .----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------oct. 12, 2012 got a mess. from mario the other pugsly's dad. it does my heart good when you are remembered. he doesn't know you but we both know that both of you were probably very much alike. we both know how blessed we were to have had you both in our lives and how special your love for us was. i love you pugs as much now as when you were physically here. but i miss everything that life gave us. your snoring, your onryness, your fur, your smell, your tushy-tuck boogie ,i could go on forever with this list of what i miss. but it's the love you so willing gave me i miss most of all. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------nov. 7, 2012 my boy , my love, my heart we have added 2 more dogs to the family. we didn't go looking for more but fate, karma, god whatever seems to send them to us. they come and won't leave . gate can be open and still they stay. our newest is ANOTHER chiuahua. a 4 lb. black and white, 7 to 8 yr. old scared little guy. noone is looking i have checked every lost dog site put up fliers and nothing after 2 wks. we think he was dumped cuz of age , horrible teeth and breath, not house broke at all. amazing since he's old. either he stayed ouside all the time or their house was awful. i tend to think he was seldom left in the house since he doesn't want to go out and once out is afraid to come back in unless you move away from the door. but he is learning from the other dogs that we have an open door policy. he's not fixed so is driving the other dogs crazy trying to hump them. he has an appt. in a couple wks. to try and fix that. but he does something that brings tears to my eyes. he likes to lay in the crook of my knees with his head on my knee like you used to every time we laid down. i pretend it's you. is that wrong my love? and like you he is next to me where ever i am it only makes me miss you more . but unlike you he isn't that care-free happy dog you were. there's no play in him, no unbridled joy for life . he has no idea what a toy is or what to do with one. it is soooo sad my boy. how unhappy a life he mut have had for 8 yrs. i tried to give you a happy life and i think i did. that is my consolation . YOU were always so happy.our last little addition, reden was a fearful, extremely aggressive little dog. but 1 yr later he his a playful, happy, social, non- agressive bundle of joy. no more attacking kids, strangers that come in the house no attacking strange dogs or this one wouldn't have stayed in the yard. maybe before this ones life is over he will be happy. . i miss you so much. you are still my heart and soul. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------nov. 22, 2012 -----thanksgiving came early my love, i remember how you would do your tushy tuck boogie when the turkey came out of the oven. all you guys loved thanks giving. but you could not contain your joy and you showed it with such abandon.
that is what i miss so much the unbridled joy you showed all the time. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------DEC.16, 2012 it's almost christmas my love, my heart, my joy. this is a hard part of the year for me. you are not here i lost clarkie and roxy in dec. we had such joyful christmases with all of you but watching you grab all the toys that the other dogs unwrapped including yours and taking them to your bed in the corner and guarding them so you were the only one with toys was too funny. but it was even funnier when i would give the other dogs their toys back and you would pout and whine and try and steal them back. oh my love i miss you so much. MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVE, MY HEART ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------dec. 28th, 2012 never an old year ends that someone doesn't think of something, old days, old times, OLD FRIENDS.you so loved christmas and you made it so much fun i miss you way too much , my love, i don't even like decorating anymore because i'm not chasing you around trying to get the decos back or having you pull them down as fast as i put them up if you reach them.. we had to get a table top tree because you thought all the ornaments were your toys.and how you would bark at the animated reindeer and try and kill it. except you were to scared to get near it if it was on, but when it stopped you would run up and grab it and take off with it. so many memories that i treasure. i love you more then ever my heart.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------feb 24 2013 hi my boy, i wish i could say i no longer cry for you but i can't. i still think of you everyday w/o fail. everything i do brings memories of you . they are good and help see me through not having you here in body.we have a new little chihuahua i told you about him earlier. we named him apache. he must've been abused because he's awful timid and falls to his belly every time you go to pet him.he crawls on his belly when you call him like he's afraid he's going to be hit . we've had him a couple mo. now and he won't get off my lap. he's finally starting to play but he still doesn't smile . i am waiting for that day when he can show his happiness as readily as you used to. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------HAPPY EASTER, MY HEART. another holiday without you. are you and clarkie and roxie looking for eggs ? you dogs always thought they where balls till you you would try to chew one then you'de look at me like," oops it broke ..... but I think i'm glad cuz it doesn't taste to bad" . you didn't like the white part but loved the yolk. you would spit out the white part and eat the yolk. it amazed me how you could do that. the other two dogs would pick them up and drop them at my feet to throw .. we had to teach you dogs to leave them alone. of course you never learned so you couldn't watch us hide them. I love you my boy. there is no more hiding eggs..---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------apr. 10,2013 I made an appt. to have your buddy sammie's teeth cleaned, because he's already 13 he needed tests to see if he would make it through the anesthetic. his heart is too enlarged to do it. he is the last of my brat pack,,pugsly I dread losing my last living link to the family we were. you were my little rebel never following the pack but always looking to see where I was..yet together we were such a cohesive pack. there was never any growling, snapping, snippy behavior with any of you. .daddy and I were so blessed with all of you and I was blessed with you. nothing is the same nor will it ever be. and when sam leaves to join you the last tangible link to what was will be gone. I still think and miss you every day------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- TODAY WAS THE DAY GOD SENT ME HIS LOVE IN THE FORM OF A PUG. happy birthday my boy there is still not a day that I don't think of you. and wish I could pet you , whisper "I love you in your ear" i'm sure your driving the angels crazy with your antics as you did me but that is what endeared you to all who met you. I am glad clarkie
and roxy are with you . I hope you are having fun with Mario's pugsly I know clarkie and roxy have welcomed him into your circle as readily as they welcomed you when you came. LOVE YOU ,MY HEART FOREVER.
P.S. I hope you and Mario's pugsly aren't both trying to sleep on clarkie's back. he would let both of you but I don't think you would both fit. you better take turns .------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ 4-25-13 hi my boy. another holiday without your body here to pet and watch. I forgot to tell you that apache's owner showed up after 4 months. he wasn't abused but missed by his owner . his owner said that crawling on his belly to you was something he done from puppyhood. I knew it was his owner and he wasn't abused because after 4 mon. he was glad to see him all tail wags and rolling to give him his belly. and he was willing to do just about anything to get him back. including leaving him with us if he could visit till he paid the vet bills we accrued on him. we said no to everything. we were just glad he found him. he has brought him back for play dates a couple times. it was kinda sad cuz apache would go to him sit on his then look at me and come back to me.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- june 17, 2013 I have been thinking of you so much lately i'm constantly calling all the other dog pugsly. people will say " you mean gitmo or redden or Sammy" and i'll say " oh, yeah." you know pugs , sometimes the urge to hug you is so strong my arms ache. so i'll hug one of the other dogs, close my eyes and hope you get it from them. before you left you gave little redden your bad habits and I laugh because dad gets so exasperated with him and nothing we do can change them. and dad will say damnit he's so like pugsly. but he is daddy's love like you were mine. bad habits and all. thankfully git and sam are such sweet little dogs and mind so well because we can only handle one of you at a time. love you my boy forever------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ 7 -13-13---- the 4th has come and gone, my boy, I could still see you barking at the fireworks. we didn't have to leave the house to see the city display, they were so close to our house. I was so glad you weren't afraid like poor Sammy is. you sit and watch until there was a really loud one then you would jump up and bark at them. when sam started getting old and his heart got worse we would load all of you in the car and just drive till they were over. we hadn't seen a display for about 4 yrs. now. we'de leave about 8:30 and come back about 10:30. you dogs liked it. we would stop at mcdonald's or some place and you would all get chicken or plain hamburgers. I still miss you so much my love .the save lennox website posted a memorial for lennox (ban bsl) it had a group of dogs at the beginning with angel wings at the rainbow bridge waiting for their owners, one was a pug.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------9-1-13 good morning my boy, the anniversary of the day you left is coming up.
maybe that is why i have been thinking of you soooo much. it is a day i don't want to remember. the memories of that day are still so painful to recall even after two yrs. it feels like yesterday. i would rather remember when i first got you. still a puppy but with so much spunk and spirit. you were such a little dickens. i was remembering how you LOVED cat toys. we bought one of those toys that hang from a door frame attached to an elastic band for the cat. he never got to play with it because you would play with it for hours. we had to nail it up because you would pull it off and then bring it to me to put back up. i got tired of doing that every five min. you woul pull it let it go then jump for it as it bounced all over. how you made us laugh. .------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------9-27-13 the first toy I ever got you was a stuffed gorilla. how you loved that gorilla. it was a little bigger then you and you would drag it all over. you slept with it, wrestled it, chewed it, licked it and as you got older i'm embarrassed to say what you did with it. and you guarded it from the other dogs. I sewed it to many times to count and washed it till it fell apart. i'll never forget when I finally knew I had to throw it out. you searched for it for days refusing to play with any other toys. emptying your toy box to find it . I felt so BAD.!!!! you eventually forgot it but it took quite a few toys to do that. wind up mice you could chase, a walking , barking dog that did flips, and those elastic cat toys that hung on the door frames. then I found a stuffed bear that became your favorite. I still have that ragged ,smelly thing. you had it for five YEARS. till you left. it barely resembled a bear anymore but I have it still because I have not forgotten how you missed your gorilla. .-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------9-30-13------------ today is the day I whispered " good-bye, my friend" as dr. Tyler gave you a sedative before the shot that gave you heaven. she had tears in her eyes , she knew you well. I spent the day remembering that day, two yrs ago like it was now. but I also spent it thinking of all those things you did that brought so much joy and laughter to my life. how I used to buy balloons for you And the grand kids . you and they would run , chasing them around the house. the boys would bat them in the air and you would jump for them and when you got one you would pop it and start looking for another one to pop. I always kept a stash of them in a drawer . I don't buy them any more. the boys don't think it's as much fun any more without you. I didn't know till you left how much MORE fun you made everything we did .you did everything with such joyful abandonment we couldn't help but be affected. never realized how much till you weren't here. good-night my boy. and bless your little heart for loving me. give clarkie, roxy and Mario's pugsly a lick from me.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------11-1-13
Halloween is over . you would always go to the door and bark at the scary costumes, if they were real scary you would run back to the living room and bark from there. the kids used to think you were the cutest thing more then one would want to pet you. you hated daddy's werewolf mask you would growl and bark and when he took it off you would attack it with a vengeance but you would run to me and bark if he had it on. thank you so much for the memories my love.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------12-03-13-----------------' The tree is all trimmed, gifts all are wrapped, the hymns are all sung, the travel plans mapped------and still there's a sadness that lies in your heart, for a dog that was lost and a love now apart.----- a stocking is missing with a toy and a treat. A lap is now empty, a space at your feet. --------yet, remember this season God's small gift to you of wonderful memories to treasure life through.--by C.C. ( of a joy that you knew and a love that was true ) by me. always in my thoughts and my heart, my boy.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------1-02-14---------another year over, my boy, and a new one has begun. I spent the holidays remembering all the things you and clarkie and roxy and Sammy would do. how you would get so excited when we would pick a wrapped present. didn't matter if it was dog or human you made a grab for it cuz they were all yours. and all the other dogs would let you take there's and I'de have to give them back. How I miss you all. ----------------------------------------2-15-2014======================================== can't help but think of you on the day marked for love and all I can say is---- bless your little heart for loving me. always in my heart and thoughts.----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------2-25-2014=======================my darling pug, cha-cha should be with you now . she died last night or early this morning they found her dead when they got up. I cried off and on all day. her and happy had been coming over to visit for 10 yrs. now she was Sammy's play buddy. we were taking her to the vet this morning because she started having seizures. happy is going to miss her, they were best pals and shared the same bed all the time they were together. take care of her my boy. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------4-20-14 Sammy's " last battle " has begun. he was your buddy. I know you know this already but I have to say that I envy that you will all be together again. you, clarkie , roxy and sam bam while daddy and I are still here. the best and sweetest part of having an empty nest was filling it with my brat pack. sam was my tangible link to all of you. what we all had was such a special bond between all of us. there was never a snarl or a fight between any of you all the years we shared. how blessed we were to have found each other. and I can't wait to share that with you again. be happy my LOVES. wait for me.----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------5-8-2014 happy birthday baby. I miss you so much my boy. my cousin from vegas called her neighbor's dog just had a litter of pug pups and she is giving them away she had 6 but 2 have already died 5 black and one fawn. I did not want one but then she told me she keeps the parents outside in a pen IN VEGAS< NEV. !!!!! they were given to her and she has no clue about pugs. I told my cousin to tell her pugs have a hard time with heat. she needs to keep them in the house. but you know how some people are.( a dog is just a dog.) I told her if any live to be 8 wks. i'll take one. I may try to get mom and dad too. It makes me cry when I think of all the love you gave me and that these poor pugs are left out in the heat. the mom isn't nursing them and it's unlikely any will live. it probably for the best if they don't go to homes that make them part of the family. I can only hope they take my advice and get them out of the pen and into the house. even the dad. they honestly thought they were being kind by taking them instead of letting them go to the pound but in the book BLACK BEAUTY beauty said that sometimes ignorant owners can be crueler than cruel owners and the suffering of the animal is just as bad.as if it was done on purpose.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------6-19-2014 hi my love , my boy, I miss you so much. still never a day goes by I don't think of you. you are in everything I do. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------7-4-14 4th of july my boy not your favorite holiday. it didn't terrify you, like Sammy , but it certainly annoyed the hell out of you because you would bark everytime one went off and you would run outside looking for those annoying bangs. daddy went into a pet store , which I have told him to never get a dog from there, but he was looking for a pug puppy for me thank goodness all they had were puggles. he hates seeing me miss you so much but he doesn't understand that no other pug could make me not miss YOU.....-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------9-29-2014 tomorrow is a day that is still so vivid in my memory. the day I said "good-bye my friend " I will always love you, I'll leave this world loving you. I'm writing today because tomorrow my cousin comes in from vegas and I may not have time but, you will be on my mind. as always, every day. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------12-12-2014 Christmas is coming again , my love, not a good time for me. I lost roxy and clarkie in dec. and you and Sammy are gone now too. I still hang up your sock. the one that says " dear santa paws leave the gifts --take the cat" a sentiment you wholly endorsed. I miss my brat pack more then I ever imagined. MERRY CHRISTMAS , my heart, my loves.----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------3-15-2015 I was almost with you my love. I was having a major heart attack and it looked like the last one according to the drs. I had to have by-pass surgery to survive. at first I refused but I saw my families faces and chose to try and stay. I always believed that saying good-bye to something you love that was leaving you was the hardest thing I would ever have to do , but saying good-bye when you are the one leaving is way, way harder and I couldn't do it my boy. I am so sorry you have to wait longer for me and my life is still so empty without you.---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------april 6,2015 apparently i was not meant to be with you yet my love. i thought it was my family keeping me here but now i think fate, god had another purpose in mind. 2 days ago some ass dumped two 7 wk old puppies in my yard with a note " we know you love dogs and we need a home. we were born feb 8, 2015 we are golden lab mixes.thank you" what asses they are. they shouldn't even be away from the mom for another 4 wks. dumped like you and your sister were. they are both girls of course, and huge !!!! i really am not healthy enough to deal with puppies and all that it takes to train them. the guy who took your sister also took one of these pups and dad wants to keep one. so i will do my best they were so scared my boy. they had no human interaction because they screamed, growled, and peed if you tried to touch them. it was so sad. but they are babies and are adjusting quickly and starting to act like NORMAL puppies. playing with us, following us. at least i think of that as normal puppy behavior. not crying , running, hiding and growling. i do not want another dog much less a puppy. i only want you. but obviously she needs someone, like you did. she reminds me of roxy but she's cream colored with brownish ears. but a fluffy coat like roxy had as a pup.. she is bonding with dad which reden really , really can't handle. he attacks her every time she goes near him. i am going to try to find her a home but if it isn't soon dad won't let her go. he kept saying he wanted a big dog to protect reden from the raccoons, coyotes, and stray feral cats since they are all bigger then this 7 lb chihuahua. i was so tempted to call the pound but they were so terrified that the pound would have really traumatized them. well my boy on the 22nd sammy will have been gone a year. and on the 24 it is the other pugsly's birthday. i love you my boy and i miss you so much.----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------may 12,2015 oh my boy, I can't believe I forgot your birthday but that explains why I have been crying more then usual when I think of you. which is still everyday. life has been so hectic with drs. apt and this new pup. people say she is a clown like you were but I tell them no, her antics are destructive, you never were. the other day probably on your birthday she drug in, through the doggie door, my plastic swan planter and proceeded to dig all the dirt out on the living room rug . people thought it was so funny but I did not. it is taking forever to clean the rug. your antics made me laugh not see red
I wish so much that she was you. I just can not seem to bond with any other like you. I found this poem that I put by your picture the other day part of it goes like this " there are others that is true but they be they and they aren't you. so as you go to your final rest ... take this with you .....I LOVED YOU BEST!!! "---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------5-23-15 this group of dogs we have now are so different my boy we are not a cohesive pack like you, Sammy, roxy, and clarkie. they are so jealous of any attention given to another. they growl, and snap at each other. they just don't seem to really want to bond. they prefer ignoring each other. I bought some bubbles for the new pup hoping she would chase them like you did but that didn't happen. if the pup gets on the bed the other dogs get down. it is so sad because it makes me miss you guys all the more. I don't know how to make us bond. redden and gitmo get along okay but neither seem to like pearl at all. she intimidates them because she is so big and boisterous. they absolutely refuse to play with her. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------7-10-15 oh pugsly how I miss you. when I see this poor pup try to play with gitmo and reden and they snap at her I really miss you because you would have loved to play with her and Sammy would have slept with her all of my brat pack would have made her welcome to the family. she missed out on having a good pack to bond with. she and I are bonding more because I have to be the one to play with her.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------9-30-2015 4 yrs. today I lost my heart, my laughter, my love. I am waiting impatiently to be with you again.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------12-07-15 so hard these holidays without you and the rest of my pack. Sammy made it easier when he was here my last link to all of you. now you are all gone young and happy and together but I am not there and I miss you all. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------3-08-2016 pearl is a year old now and still redden and gitmo haven't really accepted her . gitmo is better with her but redden still snaps at her if she is around him. thankfully she is an extremely sweet tempered dog and ignores that. and still wags her tail at him. she is protective of him and gitmo. and doesn't seem to take anything personal. you would have loved her.----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------6-9-16 oh my boy I have been so sick and in so much pain . started with a bronchial crap . cough still hasn't gone away been over a month. then 3 wks ago developed horrible pain in my hip and stomach. drs. said sciatica but now they aren't sure symptons don't match. will be getting cat scan can't believe I missed your birthday but you are on my mind every day still. I miss you so much my boy I miss all of you so much. constant pain is messing with my brain can't even spell anymore. but maybe it's the pain pills. don't feel bad about birthday forgot my granddaughter's too!--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 9/30/2016------oh my boy i wish so much you were still here. life is just not the same. laughing is not as easy as when you were here. i miss your snoring as much as ever and having you next to me all the time but the nights are the worse. having my arm on you or feeling your head on my knee. i can't seem to not miss all those little things that gave me such comfort and joy. give kisses to all the pack and the other pugsly too. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------11-7-2016---------still think of you every day. someone asked on facebook if i believed there is a doggy heaven. i replied " if my pets aren't there...
then there isn't a heaven after all" and that i truly believe--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------5-10-2017 oh my darling pugs tomorrow gitmo will be joining you and the rest of my brat pack. he's developed diabeties and with his pancretitisi and cushing disease it will be really hard to keep his blood sugar regulated He's been a pretty sick little guy. but he's my little guy. he never cuddles with me and if i try to cuddle him he moves away but he has to be wherever i am all the time. where he can see me. he will only leave with daddy if i am going. i can't stand it pugs. losing another.

9-29-2017 i am happy to tell you that mean little reden the chihuahua is now a sweet little guy . he no longer is a fear biter, or attacks other critters. he is loving like you and the rest of of the dogs i had. pearl our newest one the chow/ lab mix is also a sweetie. but they can't take the place of my guys in doggy heaven. love you always