Trixie is in Doggy Heaven.

Trixie

Age 0, January 04, 2010 - November 20, 2010

a sweet little dog.. you made me smile even when you're asleep.. i will miss you forever and ever..

Nickname: Trix

Please visit my blog site that I dedicated to Trixie.. That will serve as my journey to healing while I face everyday without my sweet little dog.

http://www.musingsandturningpoints.wordpress.com

I know that this is the only place that I can mourn full heartedly because of the people who knows how it feels like to lose a bestfriend, a dog.. Her memories stay fresh in my mind since it was just last Saturday (Nov.20, 2010), she left me and went to doggy heaven..

I wish to see her someday..

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Nov. 23, 2010

I had a conversation with a good friend today.. And this inspired me a lot..

Crisca.j dad
Fernando L. hi crisca
crisca.j u know what.. my little dog died last saturday.. so painful sir ferdie.. been crying almost everyday already.. she left me with 3 pups (3 weeks old) and everytime i feed them, it breaks my heart seeing them cry.. wala lang.. gusto ko lang mai-share.. it helps me vent the pain out..
Fernando L. i feel sorry for the pups
◄ i hope they're strong enough to survive without a mom
◄ that's going to be tough
◄ but i think you have what it takes
crisca.j i know.. i pray too that they survive. i know they all have little trixie in them to remind me of her..
Fernando L. i'm sure trixie is in a good place
crisca.j yep, wake up 3am and 5am to feed them puppy formula.. pero i still cry when i do that kse they remind me so much of her..
Fernando L. these bonds are difficult to shake off
◄ it really tears you inside when a loved one goes away
◄ leaves a mark
crisca.j i know dad.. its too hard.. i don't know how to move on..
Fernando L. well just try to figure out what trixie wud want you to do in a situation like this
◄ she would say take care of yourself so you can take care of my little ones
crisca.j you're making me cry again daddy
Fernando L. oh, i'm sorry
◄ but you know that's the way she would feel
crisca.j it breaks my heart all the time dad.. all the time.. i can't even sleep in my own room because that place reminds me so much of her..
Fernando L. it wont go away that easily
◄ its because you know how to love another living thing
◄ and i know for a fact that trixie returned your love 200 fold
◄ but you have three trixies now
◄ isnt that a miracle in itself?
◄ three trixies to give you 600 times of loving
◄ trixie gave you a gift
◄ one shd be named trixie jr
◄ the other one trixie III
crisca.j yeah.. she did.. i was there till her last breath dad.. she was in the ER.. she was fighting for her life.. and the images kept haunting me..
Fernando L. its never easy . .
◄ there's no shortcut
◄ you have to go thru the pain
◄ its what relationships are all about
crisca.j so i'd have to bear all the pain and the crying right? thats the way it has to be?
Fernando L. yes, no short cuts
◄ no magic pill
crisca.j im sure you've gone through the same thing.. how long did you mourn?
Fernando L. you have to experience the pain to understand the depth of loving another
◄ you prob never stop mourning
◄ it just transforms to another level
crisca.j whats that another level?
Fernando L. mourning turns into good memories
◄ wishing the departed godspeed in whatever journey he takes
◄ in the afterlife
◄ you need to let her go
crisca.j i can't
Fernando L. so she can enjoy her journey
crisca.j i can't.. and i don't know how
Fernando L. well its ok to mourn
◄ it tells you you're alive
◄ and know how to care for another living soul
◄ i dont know how long it will take for you to get over it
◄ prob you wont
◄ its not a crime
◄ but there are three other small souls that you've been entrusted with
◄ you have ot start focusing on them now
crisca.j i will.. i will keep all of them..
Fernando L. it will take a special touch, a special person
◄ to pull this one thru
◄ you have that gift
crisca.j thank you dad.. this conversation means a lot and I will post this in my blog for trixie.. its my way of conversing with her.. i just hope there's a way to make the pain go away, i know there's no other way but to go through all these, my bday wouldn't be complete already.. i would have brought her to celebrate with the whole family.. but I guess i have to just accept the fact the life goes on without her physically..
Fernando L. you ned the pain pumpkin
◄ its not going to stay forever
◄ its just something you have to go thru
crisca.j okay dad.. thank you.. you have no idea how you inspired me today.. and thank you because you understand what I am going through.. i know that you are the right person
◄ thank you..
Fernando L. i'm always there for you pumpkin