Miia Delaney is in Doggy Heaven.

Miia Delaney

Age 6, November 15, 2002 - November 11, 2009

My little angel forever in my heart xxxx

Nickname: Measles

My little baby girl Miia was a gorgeous little Silky x Pomeranian. She came into our lives when she was 12 weeks old. Miia was a tiny black bundle of fur. We knew immediately that she was our special little girl.

In the coming days and weeks, Miia would follow me everywhere - even to the toilet and when I had a shower she would sit in the bathroom on my pyjamas & wait for me. Miia was such a special little baby. She was such a woos & loved to be cuddled non stop. Her favourite game was hide n seek. And she loved to play "football" by herself. Pushing the ball around with her nose she would get cranky if the ball got wedged in somewhere. Miia would get it out by putting her two front legs on it & pulling it out. She was so intelligent.

Miia was a bit scared of visitors & I would have to lock her away in the bedroom until our visitors had been here for about half an hour. After that she was fine but if she didn't like someone she would get very cranky. We nicknamed her Devil Dog because of her change in personality. Children loved her because she was so little.

Miia had a wardrobe full of little dresses, pyjamas & even a rain coat. She loved to get dressed up & wear a ribbon in her hair. She also loved to get groomed. If I was grooming Chester, Miia would barge in onto my lap & demand that I do her rather than Chester.

I had never had a toy dog before & I loved to take her out in her little carry bag or in a sling over my shoulder. Everyone would comment on how cute she was. At Christmas time, Miia loved to open hee own presents. If I went shopping, I would come home & find that she had opened her own presents already. I don't know how she knew which ones were hers. And she would guard the Christmas tree & if Ches went near the tree, she would chase him away.

Miia hated it when I would go out shopping or even just go to the mail box out the front. She would smother me in licks & kisses. And we nicknamed her Measles as she was all over me like a rash!!

On Sunday November 9th 2009, Miia had been vomiting up grass. I didn't think anything was seriously wrong as she quite often ate grass to make herself vomit. I checked her coat thoroughly for ticks like I do everyday twice daily. And for the rest of the day, Miia was fine, eating, playing & being her usual woosy self. In the morning I woke at 4am & sensed that something was wrong. I turned on my light & Miia was sitting on my bed just staring at me. I picked her up & she was listless & having difficulty breathing. I started to panic & checked her again for ticks & found one under her collar, swollen with Miia's blood. I pulled it out, rang the vet & rushed her to the surgery. The vet immediately gave her treatment for the tick toxins now invading her tiny body. I had to leave her there. I felt horrible & never imagined she wouldn't be coming home. I rang everyday for 2 days & was told that Miia was okay, not any worse & not any better. They said it is best to keep her quiet & not visit her so that she doesn't get excited. On Wednesday November 11th my phone rang at 8am. I knew immediately it was the vet. The vet told me that Miia had died during the night. I couldn't believe it. My baby was gone & I abandoned her at the vet. I gelt guilty, devestated, that I had failed as a mummy to my baby girl. I couldn't stop crying & I couldn't breath. I picked up her tiny lifeless body & bought her home. After a few hours I rang the Pets At Rest to come & collect her for cremation. I have her ashes in a special urn & she has a special shelf with her ashes, favourite toy, collar & photos. I miss her so much & feel so much guilt. I will never recover from Miia dying. She died 4 days before her 7th birthday.

I was unable to have children so my pets are my children. People who do not have a pet as a member of their family don't understand my grief. To them Miia was "just a dog & told me to get over it".

I am in so much pain & I feel enormous guilt. Why didnt I find the tick earlier, why did I abandon you at the vet, why didn't I wake up ealier, why, why, why did you get taken away from me. I just miss you so much baby & people don't understand. They tell me to get over it as you were only a dog. I felt like hitting them. I rang a grief councellor & have had councelling as I just cry everyday & am in so much pain. Di, my councellor is wonderful and says that we can grieve over a pet as much as one grieves over a human. She is so nice. I miss you baby & Im so sorry that you're not here anymore.

I love you so much Miia, I miss you much & Im so sorry that I failed as your mummy. We will be together again at the Rainbow Bridge.

Rest In Peace baby girl. I love you so much xxxxxxxxx

October 19th 2011

A friend told me about this website & here I am finally able to honour you baby. The pain is still so raw and my heart is broken into a million pieces and will never be put back again. I hate it here without you. I love Chester and I have Muffi but you were my baby and the pain of you not being here is horrible.

i miss you Measles so much. More than anyone could ever know. Its your anniversary soon & the days are getting closer and Im not eating, sleeping and Im in so much pain. I have nothing to live for here. Nothing. My so called mother is no longer in my life cause she told me it was about time I got over you dying. She is a bitch and I never want to see her or speak to her again. Its been nearly 2 years now since I spoke to her. I hate her. I just want to be with you baby. Maybe soon. You'll see me, Chester and Muffi as we are all coming to see you. I miss you baby.

I have had other pets that have died but they have lived till they were of an old age. Spot my last dog died at age 18 years. Miia was only 7 and the pain of that hurts so much. She should still be here and she's not and it's my fault. I will never forgive myself. Seeing all the other gorgeous pets here whose owners loved them so much and they are also grieving and going through the same as me. I don't feel like Im mad or stupid. It is normal to grieve like this. I wanted you to live till old age baby. You should have lived till you were about 18 or 19 as you were so tiny. Im sorry. I love you xxxxx

March 10th 2012

Things are so tough at the moment baby. Im divorced now. And so glad. Your ex-father is not a nice person at all. We are still staring this house as Im getting it ready to go on the market. Then when we sell we go our separate ways. Little Muff & Ches are coming with me of course.

Im so tired and exhausted from having so much to do. There is no one to help. I have no family at all. His family hate me. Blame me for the divorce. I stay up till 2am painting and get up at 5am to start the other rooms. I just want it over baby. Im hardly eating at all. I have no interest in it anymore. I have just lost my appetite completely and in a week have lost nearly 10kig but I don't care. I want to get down to 7 stone anyway so in a couple of weeks I'll be there. Im surviving on water, protein drinks and crackers.

You know, all I want is to come to heaven with Muff and Ches. Ive had enough of it here. I have nothing to live for. Nobody loves me, nobody gives a crap about me. Not even my "supposed new friends on "??* now. What is the point in staying here when I only have Muff and Ches. We might as well come to heaven to be with you. Just give me the strength to have them put to sleep first then I'll die or we'll all die together somehow. Maybe we'll be seeing you soon baby. Im so sorry you're in heaven instead of being here. Its all my fault and I'll never, ever forgive myself. I love you forever Measles xxxxxxxxx